Tuesday, July 06, 2004

today was day one of the nats... kudos to the guys hu swam! (and apr) ull did really really well! haha... tho i know like of all the swimmers only ed and zy know my blog but too bad! haha... i think marcel swam REALLY well esp... was like oh man. must be ME! haha he totally owes me a treat ok. i rock!oh no! tt last sentence was soooo due to timmos very extremely bhb influence haha... ANYWAY. marcel swam SUPER well and he was 5th for the heats! like wow lah... its really good lor... im so proud of him haha... and daryl swam really well too! but he missed by .2 secs! tt was like toal CRAP ok!!! felt so sad for him but good thing hes called happy for a reason and he wasnt too sad abt it haha... i hope anyway... yupps. tml is my 100 free... rena char and shella wanted to come and watch... according to dex anyway and i like totally dun want them to come lah pls. NO WAY! just come to see me embarrass myself only haha... leon is so going to owe me a treat man! haha zy was sending me to spy for her but i dun think my spying was very good... but anyway i think she will be fine... ULL BE FINE GIRL! :) this yr the nats seem so much more... i dunno haha... like last yr i din really care to watch and support but this yr i really do! i think maybe if i can wake up ill go downt o watch zy tml morn heh.

anyway i just read a blog just now and like wow. ok tho he already tole me not to take it to heart cos his perceptions have changed and all but i relly would nv have thot he had such strong feelings abt stuff tt seemed so unimportant at the time. anyway im glad tt hes over it lah and tt everything is fine now :) but it really struck me tt sometimes u really dunno... i think his blog actually made my impression of him worse. like if i din noe him but just read his blog i think i wun like him very much but in real life hes like a nice person... wierd haha... maybe tts wad zy keeps thinking of herself but seriously i think this guy takes the cake haha...

anyway im qt glad abt something. i think i seem to be getting closer to church pple which is a good thing... like to some of the guys and even to my cell. yah im glad lah :) hmm timmo and andre asked me during truth or dare if i liked anyone. i said no and i really dun think i do but maybe i prefer some pple? haha... not like lah just sometimes i wouldnt mind getting to know them more. hmm ok tt sounds wierd i dunno lah haha... and i think im closer to my sister nowadays. like we dun fight so much and stuff anymore. and we talk alot more now. which is good! i realise tt its always the yr 2 yr haha... when kor was yr 2 i started getting clsoer to him oso... i guess siblings just grow older and mature more arnd this time haha... i know shes reading this so yah! steffie rocks (sometimes) haha...love ya.

zy said something in her blog abt thinking tt im a really lucky person.and well, i think i am too! dun wanna be those kinda pple tt have so much but yet complain and stuff... i count my blessings everyday! God has been so good to me. He gave me a family tt is reltively peaceful and loving and amusing and one tt doesnt have financial issues or anything and tt is just all in all a very good and wonderful family, and He also gave me a faith that i have to hold onto whenever i feel lost and a purpose in life that spurs me on. and i do qt ok in studies and have gd frens tt care abt me and whom i care abt...and im healthy and strong and dun have much sicknesses and stuff. and He has blessed me with a sense of humour tt tho most pple dun get or think is lame etc. it amuses me when im bored and enables me to get over things really quickly. i really am blessed by God and i dun understand y He has chosen to bless me so much but i thank Him for it! maybe its cos of all these tt i dun get upset for very long. when they came to my hse daniel said tt i have everything. although he meant material possessions i think it applies to my life on the whole. and i know that i did nothing to earn this life. i just hope tt i could live a life tt gives some of the blessing God has given me to others.